Masturbation lost it's fun? Don't let go yet!

Growing up I didn't know what masturbation was until I had graduated from high school. I had never even heard the word until half way through high school at a church event. They described it as a bad thing. A sin. I didn't feel those around me were any more knowledgeable about the subject than myself so I just forgot about it.
When I finally looked it up I was a little surprised to say the least. I sort of thought masturbation was a guy thing for quite a while. When I looked it up though I found that I had been doing it since I was three! As a little kid I discovered pillows, and that if I rubbed just the right way it felt good. I used this good feeling to put off going to the bathroom because I would lose the sense of urgency for a few extra minutes, which allowed me to play with me toys longer before having to eventually head to the bathroom.
As time went on my pillow and I developed a very good relationship. We had regular encounters daily, if not even more often. Until I discovered what sex was at the age of 10, I masturbated with nothing on my mind whatsoever. I could just rub into the pillow and feel good (mind you I always had clothes on, which is what made this so convenient). When I discovered what sex was it was like my brain changed. I suddenly could only masturbate with nothing on my mind if I really really tried. Before long I had to think about sex or it just wouldn't work.
I kept up my regular routine for a longtime, till my dog died when I was about 15 years old or so and I spent more time at church. I felt guilty for masturbating because I was thinking of sexual things while I rubbed into the pillow. I still didn't know the act itself was a 'horrible sin', but I was smart enough to know that the thoughts weren't Christian.
Vowing to not do it again I gave it up for an entire year.It wasn't an easy year, for the longer I went without it the more my body wanted it. The cravings for it just didn't leave me.
When over a year had passed I had forgotten why I had given it up. Whatever deep reason I had originally had didn't seem as important. I gave into temptation and went at it. I hadn't used those muscles in my legs for such a long time that I walked bow-legged for a day or two. I hoped no one noticed. I just rubbed into the pillow over and over again for almost an entire day till I hurt. It was definitely the best masturbation I have ever had.
I don't feel that masturbation is a bad thing at all. If it keeps you from getting into trouble do it. It feels good and is 100% safe and disease free. My way can be done anytime anywhere, since you are fully clothed. Just lay on a pillow on the floor as you watch tv. If someone leaves the room for a minute use your time wisely. One or two minutes is all you really need.